Ezekiel 48:35

Ezekiel 48:35 - And the name of that city shall be "THE LORD IS THERE"

Wednesday, May 11, 2022

Flowers of the Field

I get asked a lot in ministry something along the lines of, "How does this apply to my life?" 

I'll hear people say, "You keep teaching the same things..."

Yes, there are (mostly) no bad questions, but there are a lot of questions that demonstrate that the ones asking have completely missed the point. That is likely a result of my own lack of clarity in teaching and a desire for teaching to do something different than I intend it to do or different than teaching in church ought to be doing.

"Application" is, in my eyes, a weak goal. We apply things and they go away, like we apply makeup or paint that chips away. Application is also only part three of the teaching theory, Bloom's Taxonomy.

Even more though, my teaching isn't about how things can be applied directly from my messages. 

What I want my teaching to get at is the roots of our mind, heart, soul, and strength. And this is only by the Spirit's workings and my feeble attempts at following the lead of God.

My answer to "How does this apply?" today is really a very simple and perhaps direct: "Figure it out." I'm exhausted of people missing the point, I don't desire to give you a three step plan to how to incorporate verses into your life. When the verse says, "In your relationships with one another, have the same attitude as Christ Jesus..." I don't think it takes a master's degree to figure out how this applies to our lives.

Are we listening?

How it "applies" is to the very core of ourselves. Let our roots be so nourished by God and his kingdom that application is only part of what we discover in a life and community named "The Lord Is There."

Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, that we might have roots so shaped and embedded and nourished by and with God that our lives are flowers proclaiming the goodness of God.

Wednesday, January 27, 2021

Beating Against the Wind

All I can feel right now is outmatched by the world of sin, brokenness, and lies. I give this work of God my every effort, I work hard to better myself and provide ministry events, groups, activities, regular gatherings, messages, relationship...and I sense very little impact from that.

Is all my effort for nothing? Is my passion pointless? Do I even matter? 

1 Corinthians 15:58 - Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor is not in vain.

I understand, 1 Corinthians, but I am exhausted of beating against the wind, as if the turmoils of people are immune to any good I hope to manifest, create, or guide anyone to.



I trust in God, and I am committed to the ministry of the Gospel.

Monday, January 25, 2021

The Tip of My Brain

It feels like I have so many ideas. Ideas for the church, ideas for the future, ideas for love. They're jammed in my brain, really log-jammed. Waiting for some forcefield to open and let the ideas rush out like a river freed from its dam. The ideas are basically on the tip of my brain. I know what they are, somewhere deep inside myself, but I can't seem to clearly articulate, for myself or others, what the ideas are. 

This log-jam of ideas, what is the remedy? How do I release the river? How do I access the deep reaches of the full knowledge and experience of my past to put together some coherent and well-developed ideas for the church of today?

I'm almost like the Dead Sea at times, I become so lifeless in my ministry because I have so much good I feel the potential of doing while I am really operating in this rut of how things have always been done. I want to identify:

1. What forcefield-dam is log-jamming the river of ideas and what causes it

2. What ideas are stuck in there

3. How do I develop and discover these ideas

This journal is just an adventure dive into my heart and mind.

1. What forcefield-dam is log-jamming the river of ideas and what causes the forcefield-dam to be there?

There are so many things that keep my ideas contained. One that always plagues me is a lack of self-confidence. I never trust my own ideas, partly because I hate conflict and being challenged is both very uncomfortable and really strikes my sense of self. I don't believe in myself very often, and when I do, usually there is an opposition from a myriad of sources that cause me to slow down. I need affirmation and assurance that I have some good or helpful idea or yearning, and when I don't sense that, I shrink back into my shell like a turtle.

Another is fear of being just another attention-seeker or televangelist type. I really really don't want to become something I dread so much. I want to have pure motives but I even moreso desire to be seen as someone with pure motives. My fear to not produce for myself manifests itself in a selfish addiction to be perceived as I want to be perceived while also not being who I believe I can be or want to be. What a paradoxical useless identity. I'm a little bit ashamed.

The forcefield-dam locks me into place usually by my own doing. An aspect of this is also believing I am not equipped or ready to take action. This probably has been reinforced by others telling me I'm not ready or capable, but now that I have a good amount of experience and a lot of academic and practical learning, I am plenty equipped. Somehow I still can convince myself I can't do something.

External forcefields contribute as well, ones I have no control over but can choose to actively work against. The big one for me is lack of willingness or desire in those I get to lead. I dream of being a pro sports coach! These people get to coach and inspire people who really want to be there, whatever their motivation is. They implement strategies and goals that everyone wants, sometimes I feel that those I work with could care less, it's the least of their priorities. That is extremely de-energizing.

If these things create the forcefield-dam, then: What ideas are stuck in my brain behind it?

I want people to know God and a re-imagined community defined by God. So many books, stories, and experiences have taught me. I feel like brainstorming a list is best here, with little detail:

  • Communion as an actual meal that breaks down social barriers and re-builds a kingdom-centric community
  • Creative prayer
  • Practical life skills + Jesus
  • Kingdom Work!
  • Hermeneutics
  • Discipleship
  • Food driven gatherings
  • Church Curator
  • Christian Formation
  • Culture Engagement
  • Subversive actions that are founded on Jesus not politics
  • Brian McLaren's Love Curriculum
  • Removing stigmas (even though some seem deserved)
  • Story-sharing and story-hearing
  • Prayer Practices
  • Liturgy
  • Equipping the church in exciting ways
  • Write my book!!!!
  • Etc...
I have a lot of ideas, and this list has more detail behind it but many ideas have a lot of forming and development needed. How do I develop and discover these ideas?

I believe in contemplation a lot, and I have gotten away from it. I need to fast from the rut my office and desk can get me trapped in. My creative juices get dehydrated of the living water when I only engage with them statically. I miss the community of seminary and the life-giving friendships of Wichita, who helped spring-board me to where I am today.

I need to practice contemplation more. Within this, ideas can find the voice of God. My kalimba, my journal, my Bible, these items help me find the presence of God. There is where I can develop and discover ideas.

I also need a refinement of trusted community of people also seeking a dam-destroying, forcefield-breaking church. Seminary got my blood jumping for ministry but sometimes bogged down with assignments, here I am accomplished and free of that, and it's time to again jolt my energy for church.

There are so many ideas on the tip of my brain. I only hope I don't let them waste away in my brain. I want to try, I want to dream, I want to act. I just don't know what leap to make or what this passion is for or aimed at or even wants to do. I need community with drive and hope, and I need the harp of Elisha. 

I want to be a guide for others to God's presence and the new wonders and joy God has for us. How to do it is on the tip of my brain, I can't yet exactly find it...


Monday, January 11, 2021

three things i am marinating on after january sixth twenty-twenty-one

 1. I’m thankful for the makeup of the 12 disciples, who were all so different to their core but still were united by Jesus. There were tax collectors, fisherman, a zealot, and others. People from all corners of society who likely had strong feelings and opinions about the workings of the world, yet they followed Jesus together. The zealot likely wanted to act passionately, the fishermen perhaps wanted to change classism, maybe the tax collectors kept hoping Jesus would reinforce their wealth…but they found themselves following Jesus and maybe little by little they began to let Jesus guide them first instead of their own personal agendas. 

 

2. I’m thankful for the apostle Peter. Peter frequently said and did what we look at as “the wrong thing” yet still was so close to Jesus. He received correction and changed. And when he was asked by Jesus, “Who do you say that I am?” his answer was, “You are the Messiah.” Even still, he denied Jesus and attacked one of Jesus’ arresters with a sword, doing and saying the wrong thing and acting in a way Jesus didn’t want. He repented and changed.

Am I saying or doing the wrong thing right now, thinking I am acting in the name of Jesus? What do I need to do to change and to make sure I am first allegiant to Jesus instead of something I want or something I have misinterpreted / misunderstood Jesus to be about? We must be humble and repent.

 

3. Philippians…Philippians. Especially Philippians 2. Humility. Allegiance to Jesus. 

Pippin, Fool of a Took

"I am a messenger of the King," Pippin said. "You are speaking to the King's friend, and one of the most renowned in all the lands of the West. You are a ruffian and a fool. Down on your knees in the road and ask pardon, or I will set this troll's bane in you!"

All throughout the story of Lord of the Rings, Pippin had caused things to go wrong. He alerted orcs in Moria and a balrog to their presence, he talked to Sauron with a palantir, and more. He was, as Gandalf said, a fool.

Yet here we find Pippin drawing swords against a man bigger and stronger than him, all because he knows the king and he knows who he is with. 

I'm a fool. I have likely caused things to go wrong and could cause many more wrongs if left to my own devices. But still I can be the fool who acts in Jesus' name and thus finds courage, good things to stand for, and the king's purpose. I am no fool, I am a messenger of the king, formed to do as he would do.

Friday, June 5, 2020

Learning from 2020: Part 1


I remember the text message well, “OMG! Kobe Bryant just died.” 

I was at a student’s scout ceremony and saw the text in our family thread. Like the entire sports world, I was saddened and shocked. An athlete who shaped so many had died tragically.

Many revered him and saw how much he stood up for his daughter as not a “female basketball player” but fully as a person, his daughter, and a basketball player. He told Jimmy Kimmel that people tell them he needs a son to carry on his legacy of basketball, Kobe always replied, saying, I have a daughter for that.

We all thought 2020 was off to a rough start, little did we know what would come next, next…next.

We then experienced a global pandemic as covid-19 took over the landscape of the world socially, politically, personally, and in every way. We were quarantined, confused and scared. The virus shut down all the aspects of our daily lives and forever changed many of those aspects.

What can we learn?

We need each other, we need community. 

As we were starting to enter reopening phases from the virus’s isolation, America (with the world watching) began to discover, for the seemingly 10,000th time, that racism is not gone. A man in Georgia, Ahmaud Arbery, was gunned down and murdered, some even said, “hunted.” The horrific video made its way around the world. Mere weeks later, police brutality and racism again took center stage, as George Floyd was murdered in Minnesota. This was, as I have seen some say, “the straw that broke the camel’s back.” The world, especially the white world of America and Christian America, had too often been looking at the wrong part of the stage, the parts that made them comfortable. For many people racism has always been center stage.

The topics of systemic racism and police brutality have left covid-19 as a seeming distant memory, though many protesters still don their masks. Racist policies, systems, and personal complicity have led to heated debates, family strife, and education. 

What can we learn?

It’s easy to run away from 2020. Too often I hear Christians say, “Come, Lord Jesus!” I get the sentiment, they crave the second coming, but I think we are either overlooking the true power of Jesus’ first coming and/or we are boxing the truth of Jesus’ message into our own box of comfort, pride, and ignorance. The power of the Spirit proclaimed in Acts 1:8 wasn’t just so Christians could speak in tongues and preach well, it was so that we can act in accordance with God and by God’s power. Shalom for all. Look at the whole stage.

Jesus was baptized, fasted for 40 days in the desert, and then began his ministry; one of the first things he did was preach the Sermon on the Mount, found in Luke and Matthew. 

Two parts of that sermon stand out to me right now: The Beatitudes and The Lord’s Prayer.

The Beatitudes confirm that people will mourn, suffer, face persecution, and hunger and thirst for righteousness. The Lord’s Prayer confirms that Jesus’ goal was never to come rescue us out of the world but to empower us to be in the world in ways that are loving, just, righteous, heavenly, generous and so on. I don’t use the word “peace” on purpose, because we sometimes misuse peace where the word shalom should be; shalom is the state of living as God intended, and when some people experience the lack of shalom every day, then we haven’t been accomplishing the fullness of The Lord’s Prayer. Of course God intends peace, but it is about so much more than we box it in to mean.

“Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” 

The world is in collective mourning right now. Mourning and pain can sometimes propel us, individually and communally, into damaging actions. Protests and the like are expressions of mourning. A community is mourning and saying “Listen! Look and see the unjust system we live in!” All too often people turn the other way or, perhaps worse, explain away their mourning with prejudice so ingrained they can’t see it in themselves. The mourning is for good reason, and if you don’t like the riots, perhaps look closer and listen better, join the mourning in ways you deem productive. Remember, when slavery was challenged, people who were upset didn't just riot, they started a literal war. 

“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.” 

The mourning is mixed with a craving for righteousness. Andy Dwyer is famously quoted as teaching us, “Did you know the food you eat becomes energy?” Well, what are you consuming? Be sure that it isn’t isolated to your own contexts, because you will be trapped and caught in a system of your own making that perpetuates your prejudices and denounces the realities of what is center stage for people of different places and races than you.

The Black community is hungering and thirsting for righteousness. I am thankful to see so many who have already been hungry for the same thing and excited for so many who are becoming aware of the God-given hunger for righteousness in the form of racial justice and reconciliation. However, I mourn that our hunger has not turned fully into active energy. Let’s begin to hunger for full righteousness, not just the aspects of righteousness that taste good to us. 

“Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God.”

Making peace in 2020 is not about stopping protests. It’s about creating a world where all people, and right now specifically Black people, can be at peace, living in the shalom-filled world that God intended.

Let us be a church who, by the power of the risen Savior, acts in ways that accomplish the prayer, “Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.”


Looking at the Whole Stage

Barna and the Reimagine Group recently released as a resource for churches about US Christians and how we feel about racism titled, “Where Do We Go From Here?” Reimagine Group founder Jack Alexander says in the introduction, “…my heart has been broken as I have learned more about the facts of our nation’s history. In Ezekiel 9, God calls his people to grieve and lament over abominations and injustices in the land. In our land, a clear abomination began in 1619—[401] years ago—when approximately 20 African slaves were sold in Jamestown, Virginia. Nationally, laws, codes and persistent discrimination ensured that black Americans would remain at a social and financial disadvantage, long after they were technically free.”

The racism did not end after the Civil War, the Civil Rights movement, or you showing respect to your friends who are Black. Racism will begin to end when the system that perpetuates it is repented from.

Too many have been complicit, knowledgably or not, in this system. If you don’t believe in white privilege or systemic racism it’s likely because you have been benefiting from it. 

We as Christians have to be ready to act and not let this be another movement we care about for a week and then stop caring about it, just like going on a short-term mission trip and doing more damage than good.

The Barna study sites that “About three-quarters of practicing Christians are open to solutions, spiritual and otherwise!” That’s a good start, even if it is late. We are regrettably late to be so active only as of today, but let us not cause us to relent. The study is concluded by Bryan Lorrits, pastor of Abundant Life Christian Fellowship in Silicon Valley, CA. He says, " The fact is race is still a reality which divides us. The truth is Jesus came to give us the ministry of reconciliation. "

The systemic racism needs to be ended. It will be painful, it will be hard, it will be long, but 401 years of systemic racism cannot become 402.

Wednesday, March 25, 2020

The Beautiful, Horrible, Whole Complexity of Flourishing

The Human Experience is unfathomably complex.

Consider the celebrations you have had, shared in, and witnessed.

Consider the tragedies you have had, shared in, and witnessed.

The Divine Existence has space for the complexity and welcomes it all.

We try to build systems to account for whatever we see as most important.

Political, educational, economical. 

The width of humanity's tragedy and celebration

The height and depth of humanity's risings and fallings, the height and depth of humanity's richness.

The volume of experiences which fill up our news feeds, minds, and hearts.

The Divine Existence has a seat for us to cry, rejoice, rage, and cower.

We create art to express ourselves.

We choose to believe in one thing or another, one person or another, one movement or another.

Each claiming they have the best way forward, the best way to accomplish human flourishing.

The human experience is unfathomably complex.

The Divine Existence is unfathomably welcoming to every human.

The brokenness we experience has a place for restoration.

The goodness we have to share has a community for sharing and growth.

The places where we dwell have a source of life.

The habitats we yearn for are made available with this Divine Existence.

Sorrow abounds.

Joy resounds. 

Tragedy explodes.

Creativity surrounds.

The Human Experience cannot be defined, solved, or fully seen by any.

The Divine Existence, though, is with all.

The wholeness of all of humanity yearns for so much.

Love.

Acceptance.

Peace.

Victory.

The wholeness of all humanity has experienced so much.

Leading to destructive ways and hateful speech.

Leading to loving and helpful endeavors.

Human wholeness is not seen in any one space, area, or group.

The Divine Existence sees and knows all.

Limited humanity, complete with the community of the divine.

Jesus, resurrected, victorious over death.

Welcoming all into the home of the Divine.

A wholeness we have yet to come to.

A wholeness and home and with-ness that our minds can scarcely comprehend.

Let the Divine, God Father Son Spirit guide us to love.